This is something I often struggle with. I seem to either:
- Be humble to the point of believing that I'm not worthy of God.
- Be confident in Gods power within me for a while until I get a big head & think that it's my amazing faith that does it.
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York St sermon topic tonight??
It is hard. And I think as inperfect humans, we fluctuate between the two extremes... Like at the moment, I'm finding God really distant... Like I'm not letting Him in to take control of my life... But in the same sense, I feel like why would He want me? Why would be love me?
How hard is it to be constantly in the mindset that everything is under God's control in His perfect timing and only His will is going to be done?
I need to cry.
Remembering that it's all about God, and not about me?
A lot easier said than done, of course...
I think it comes down to surrendering ourselves to God, and letting Him work through us. We are not perfect beings, but God wants to use us.
Surrender: to give over every aspect of our lives to God. There is such a big power in surrender, submission and obedience to God.
Talking from personal experience, I have seen a bit of God's power used through me in a rather extreme way (and that's not to say "look at me I'm holier than thou", but it's a situation I wanna use.) After this certain 'incident' happened, the guy I had prayed for was in total awe of what had gone on, and said something along the lines of "wow you're so awesome .. look what you did", but I really at the time didn't want to take that glory, because I knew it was all God.
Anyway, perhaps I will be back with more when I ponder this a bit more
I don't think there really needs to be a tension between having humility and believing in God's power within us. If it really is God's power we're opperating on, then it isn't anything for us to be proud of, so we can still be humble.
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